...I hate you.
For those who may not know, I have what's called polycystic ovary syndrome or PCOS. I've probably had it for a while but didn't know until about 4 months before I got pregnant with Charlotte. To read more about it go here.
I had a very large cyst before and it was surgically removed and have had crazy irregular periods my whole life. I've gone a year without bleeding and sometimes its just a couple months. It depends. My body is crazy. I've had acne most of my life. It was really bad as a teenager on my back. I have trouble keeping weight off. If I don't exercise I get fat.
PCOS is making me mad again. After not having a period for almost a year (I had had the cyst removed in that time too) I decided to go to my dr. because Scott and I were thinking about starting a family and I knew something wasn't right and I'd have to get it figured out. So he walks in (first time meeting him, he was new and just replaced my previous dr) he says hi and looks at my chart and says, you have polycystic ovary syndrome. I can tell by your skin and your weight. If you want I can run a bunch of tests that will cost you a lot of money but I want to save you the money because I know its what you have. So he gave me some tips, said he's giving me a pill to force my body to bleed then I'll go on birth control for 3 months while taking metformin then I should be good from there. And I was. As soon as I got off birth control I got pregnant.
So here I am again. IUD out Dec 29, period on Jan 15 and nothing.... I am almost through my third box of ovulation tests (20 tests/box) and a whole lotta nothing. I'm just not sure how long I should wait before going back in. I think I'll wait at least a month. I'm starting my biggest loser book again tomorrow. I stocked up on all the food I need so hopefully I'll drop some more weight. I was hoping me exercising more would help but it hasn't yet. So we'll see. I hope as I drop some more weight it will. My dr. had told me I would struggle with this my whole life. My entire life will be me trying to keep weight off. Really bad for someone who loves to cook and loves food. I guess everyone has their trials and struggles and this is one of mine.
I shouldn't get so frustrated right now. I know a lot of other people who have dealt with issues much longer and have struggled with so many other health issues. I know PCOS is pretty common but it's still annoying. I really just need to be more positive and find ways to distract me. It's like I want to be pregnant as bad as I did the first time. You'd think with my almost 2 yr old monster that'd be the last thing I want. Yeah, nope! So I guess until then I will try to learn patience in more ways than one. I will hopefully lose a good chunk of weight. And the most important...I will learn that things happen on the Lord's time. Not mine. He's in control of it all. I did learn last time though I can't just give up on my own and say, "well when the time's right it'll happen." Yes and no. If I just leave it all up to him nothing will get done. I do have to make an effort myself. I got a little healthier and saw a dr and then things fell into place. I need to do my part and he will help with the rest. So glad I at least learned something! So I better do it again. Do what I can myself right now and when the time is right, I'm sure he'll step in and lend a hand.
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I have the same thing and yes it sucks, they have also found that if you have it then either your mom or a sister will have it too! My sister had been struggling with it for the last 9 years and got really discouraged and then finally got pregnant and after that I found out that I had it! Yep, i know exactly what you are feeling, call me if you ever want to talk. There is also a diet that my dr was talking about that could actually help with the disease, just google foods to eat to help with PCOS. There is more stuff out there about this and I know the Internet has a lot of help!!! plus vitamins to be on and stuff like that!!! Hang in there sweetie, this is tough but you can get through it!!! and you wont be alone, call or email if you need anything, I don't know how much I can help but I am a good listener and you won't have to feel like your alone in this.
Love ya much
Tif
Tif, you're so awesome! My mom hasn't ever been diagnosed but pretty sure she had it considering her crazy health problems (which are waaaaay too long to list) and since she only had 3 kids 10 yrs apart... yeah... I pretty much knew my destiny would be struggling to have kids and warned Scott of it because I knew it'd be a challenge. I just didn't know the medical diagnosis until the last 3 yrs. Oh well. I always warn my little sis that as she gets older she's gotta stay healthy and eat right and exercise otherwise she'll start to look like me. Right now she says she doesn't want kids (maybe she's spent too much time watching Charlotte? :) ) and I tell her well with our healthy history that might not be an issue. It is frustrating but I'm back on the biggest loser boat and we'll see if dropping more weight helps me out a bit. I know my dr will be so proud if I lose like 20 lbs. He told me to do that a long time ago! So glad I have another PCOS buddy to turn to when the going gets tough!
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