Two year old and a pregnancy... oy....

Of course I knew being pregnant and having a two year old was going to be tough but oh my goodness. Charlotte is feisty. She can be so sweet and is so dang cute but you make her mad or she doesn't get her way...watch out. It's like that book "When Sophie gets angry... really, really angry." We read that to Charlotte but input Charlotte for Sophie (love that name for a little girl by the way). This morning I was up for 2 hours from 2 to 4 trying to get her back to sleep and she didn't want to. Scott leaves around 5 to 5am so I didn't want to wake him up but I was getting so frustrated and my voice wasn't exactly as quiet as it should have been. Scott felt bad because I was so tired so he went in there with her. I needed a minute to use the bathroom because I have to go once or twice at night... and I'm only 20 weeks. I'm sure that will get worse :) So when I came back and asked if he wanted to go lay back down to try and get a little more rest before he had to leave, Charlotte told me to leave. Seriously? She said, "Mom leave." Nice. Thanks, love you too. Always a daddy's girl, I swear.

She also has this thing that whenever I ask her something instead of just telling me no she says, "no way." Where the heck did she learn that from? Do I say no way a lot? I can't even think of when I say it but maybe I do. She is the master of fits. She's actually pretty good if I have to take her to the store. I can usually distract her when she gets bored or doesn't want to be there anymore. She is just a tough kid. It's my little sister all over again. I lived that once and never thought I'd have to do it again. I guess at least Charlotte never had colic as a baby. That would be worse. I'm sure raising her will be a great learning process but we're hoping to start tackling potty training soon so I can only imagine how that might go with little miss independent. I just have to get her excited about it. But oh man... some days....

So then there is pregnancy. After I endured the first trimester I feel so good. My sciatic and tailbone hurt every now and again but its not as bad as it was last time. So glad I'm not sitting in a chair all day. That was horrible. I think I might even be having some Braxton-Hicks already. I don't notice my stomach getting as tight but I'm also only 20 weeks and when I had them with Charlotte I was like 30ish weeks... maybe a little more. But the way I feel like inside... kind of hard to describe... feels like how they did. They're so random which is how they work so I think that's what it is. I don't feel like anything is wrong either. Just part of pregnancy. It just weird being so early. I've been able to feel the baby a lot. One day at the cabin it was moving really weird. It felt almost how it did when I should be a month or two away from delivering. It was neat because I can feel it more with my hand if I can find the right spot. I love to feel the baby moving around and can't wait to find out on Monday what we're having. That baby better not be shy like Charlotte was. I wanna know 100%. I can't wait to finally get a glimpse at our little one.

It's so crazy to me to think we're gonna have two kids. I'm sure it'll be a challenge with two but Charlotte can be a really good helper and already helps me with a lot... when she's in a good mood :) But I think this will be good for her. I just need to make sure she gets the attention she needs. That's why I really wanna potty train her before the baby comes. That is something she needs all my attention for. I am really excited for this baby though. Still think its a girl. Still so many names in the air. There are a couple that we both really like but the nickname could be almost identical to their cousin's name if that's a girl who will be born shortly after. I'm sure once the sex is determined we'll be able to really think of what sounds right and what's gonna fit. I'm gonna try and put a poll up on here so people can start getting their guesses in. If I have time on Monday after my appt I'll try to do a post but my ultrasound is 1:30 my appt with the dr at 2 then at 3:45 I have vball practice with the young women and then we gotta clean the church bldg at 5. So maybe even that night I can find some time. I'm so excited! Monday can't come fast enough!