Things just don't get easier...

So I got some more answers today. Of course right before we were about to meet with my dr he got a call to deliver a baby. So my luck. Scott was actually able to be with me today. It's been a long week and I've really been missing him. I feel like we've hardly been able to talk with him working late and me having mutual and everything. So it was really nice to not be alone today. Especially with all the stuff I heard. So we know for sure I'm going to have to have surgery. It's just a matter of when. My MRI results mentioned unusual quite a few times. Shocker. Everything I do is unusual. Never the norm! I remember him saying some weird things. One related to fibroid. Talked about a mass of cysts. All sorts of stuff. There was one thing though that he wanted to rule out and he couldn't do it with the MRI. So he also wants a CT scan with contrast so he can see my kidneys and check that. He also wants a barium enema... try not to be jealous. He didn't necessarily want to do a colonoscopy. He didn't think he'd need to do that big of a procedure when he could do the barium enema and xray to get his answers. So I guess I should say thanks. He said its going to hurt though because if it hurts with a bowel movement it will hurt with this. Fantastic. Bring it on.

So in the next couple days I should get those tests scheduled and results in. He's going to pull my surgery info from the hospital and look over that. I had told him about my CT results from before and I can't remember the term he used for a swollen tube. Something with a Sp... something maybe? I don't know but he said there is a chance it has been that way for the last 5 years. Or possible not all the cyst was removed and its continued to grow all this time. It's hard to say. Hopefully once those tests are done he'll know better how to approach my surgery which will happen no matter what. He was hoping to wait after the holidays but said if I'm in enough pain we can probably do it Thurs or Fri. I think I'm gonna push for that. I don't know how much longer my body can hold up. Oh I also had to get more blood work done. He wanted to run some other tests with it.

I guess I can just try to enjoy the holidays as best as I can. I've already dropped like 3 lbs since Monday. I haven't had much of an appetite. I think from the stress. I think I might be weaning Jackson cold turkey. I'm sure I won't be able to nurse after my other tests and not sure how it'll work with my surgery so I better just stop now. Not excited about drinking that stuff for my CT scan. It's not awful but its not good. Don't even wanna think about the enema... ugh. Scott was like, "You poor thing," as soon as he heard that. Not sure what I'm going to learn from this experience but I know I'll get through it. It's just gonna be a bit longer than I thought. I'll keep updating. Since this is like my journal I want to remember these things. Oy... what a week!