Day 28

Something that stresses me out. What doesn't stress me out? I can get stressed out pretty easy. I try to keep calm but I'm my own worst enemy. I'll be cleaning something then notice something else I should clean. Then I see something else that got left out and in just a couple minutes my one simple chore has turned into 10 different things. If I'm in a hurry then it just makes it worse. Today is a great example of that. And to make it all worse, my back has been KILLING me. I've never had back pain this bad. Even when I was pregnant with Charlotte and I thought that got bad. I think its a sciatic thing. It was bugging me last week when I was running and was shooting down my right leg. Now it hurts worse in my lower back and is just aching into my right hip. I've tried extra strength tylenol and napricin but all it does is take the edge off but I'm still in pain. So trying to do all this stuff while my back kills just stresses me out worse. I just have to remind myself that its ok and everything doesn't have to be perfect and sometimes I just need to sit and veg for a few minutes like I'm doing now. Otherwise I'd probably be in a corner rocking back and forth talking to myself. I think I'm like a giant oxymoron sometimes because I think I'm pretty easy going with some things. I guess when it only involves me or something I'm doing I get really picky. I'm a perfectionist. If its anybody else I'm just kinda like, whatever. But yeah, I guess I just stress myself out.